More weird searches – Illuminati and meth, and some negative effects of meth

I probably shouldn’t do this. By writing about the weirdest most common searches that get here, I no doubt invite more of the same. But some of them are just so stupid, I have to write something

Illuminati and meth

This remains one of the most common searches, and it just goes to show, meth fucks with your brain.

The Illuminati is a common name used for a few groups that existed in the 18th century, but there is a conspiracy theory believed by many crazy people, in which such an organisation still exists, controlling all world affairs from behind the scenes. This idea was made popular by a couple of movies starring Tom Hanks, The Da Vinci Code, and Angels & Demons. It’s fiction of course, but there will always be people who like to believe such things are real. Throw in some Watchers, Freemasons, or reptilians, whichever suits your variety of the delusion. You’re looking in the wrong place for that kind of crap. Maybe you should head on over to David Icke’s site.

What that has to do with meth, I do not know. It might be that you got here because I’ve made fun of conspiracy theories, or maybe there are people whose addictions lead to psychosis and the belief in conspiracies.

Negative effects of meth

This one isn’t dumb, although there are probably better places to get that kind of information. There are some effects that are not documented though, and only someone who has experienced them will be able to tell you about those. Unfortunately, most people who have used meth don’t write much, unless they are tweaking on writing, and anyone still using meth probably either doesn’t know, or doesn’t want to face what it does to them…

So here are some negative effects off the top of my head:

  1. All the effects of sleep deprivation. There are many. To name a few: Impaired concentration, confusion and paranoia if you are awake long enough, fatigue, and eventually hallucinations. Actually the hallucinations make way for something else and deserve a point all of their own.
  2. The hallucinations, after prolonged use, give way to voices in your head (see this post) and may lead to permanent psychosis or mental illness. It may even be a trigger for schizophrenia…
  3. On meth, when high you are in a state very similar to a fight-or-flight-mode adrenaline rush, and you respond to everything as if it is a matter of life and death. You don’t know that you are doing so, but you overreact to everything, especially anything that will result in an emotional response. If meth users use together, you can observe this in their behaviour (but not your own) and may even laugh at them. They all overreact to each other and have screaming matches over the smallest things, and are all quite unaware that their responses are not normal.
  4. Further to the previous point, meth users can become aggressive and violent. Again, they are unaware that their moods and responses are not normal. You feel normal, but you don’t come across normal.
  5. Also a result of the fight-or-flight-mode tension, your body redirects the blood away from your stomach (and other places like your fingertips) to more vital muscles, as if you are in genuine danger and need to respond to an imminent threat. Since the blood flow to your stomach is diminished, this can cause diarrhoea as well as painful abdominal symptoms very similar to irritable bowel syndrome. The reduced blood flow to your fingertips causes a numb feeling there. (More on that later.)
  6. Meth causes wild mood swings as you go up and come down, similar to bipolar disorder. Doctors are not psychic. (Actually nobody is.) If you visit a doctor for your bipolar disorder or irritable bowel syndrome that’s actually just a side-effect of the drug, they may misdiagnose you and treat you as if you really have whatever you think you have.
  7. Speed makes you slow, not fast. The name “speed” is a misnomer. While you may feel alert and wide awake, you become increasingly delayed with each passing day awake, and are noticeably slow to people who aren’t high on meth.
  8. The worst negative effect is tweaking. You become abnormally psychologically fascinated with whatever you are doing, and will then repeat those tasks like a zombie for hours or even days before snapping out of that state. Further, you erroneously associate the mental state with “energy”. This is what you are really addicted to, the mental state attained by the meth high. You forget what normal energy is, and want to tweak all the time. Thus you have to use all the time to be in that state, but that state never does you any good.
  9. I said I’d return to the numb fingertips. You might discover it feels really weird when touching your face, then tweak on touching and picking at your face. It doesn’t help that you are dehydrated and suffering with dry skin as well.
  10. You might suffer with formication, which is defined as the false sensation of flesh-crawling bugs.
  11. Meth can and does make people horny. That might seem great when you are with your partner, but the problem is it makes you horny all the time, and does the same to your partner, even when he or she is not with you. You are less inhibited on meth (like a drunk person though you don’t appear drunk), and may cheat on your partner. Maybe you’re stronger than that, but your partner probably isn’t.
  12. Meth will destroy every relationship you have, sooner or later. OK, this is not an effect; it’s a consequence.

As stated before the list, those effects were just ones I could remember off the top of my head. There are other effects. It should be crystal clear that the effects are so negative, so severe, they are far more significant than any positive effects. Using meth takes you into a downward spiral into oblivion, a dark place from which most meth addicts will never return. I’m writing this because I did such a search myself before I started using, but I did not find a list of effects that were truly representative of the effects of meth. The list above is.

After writing all those depressing points, I’m no longer interested in mocking another search string, so will leave it at this for this post. I hope this information was useful to somebody.


About Jerome

I am a senior C# developer in Johannesburg, South Africa. I am also a recovering addict, who spent nearly eight years using methamphetamine. I write on my recovery blog about my lessons learned and sometimes give advice to others who have made similar mistakes, often from my viewpoint as an atheist, and I also write some C# programming articles on my programming blog.
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