My last mini-post mocked somebody who got here after searching for “what happened before porn shooting”… This mini-post is not intended to mock, but rather to respond more seriously to a search result that brought someone here, on a search relevant to meth addiction. Their search text was:
I’ve had only good spiritual stuff happen on meth
Well, bully for you! Also, congratulations on the lack of spelling mistakes in your search text.
The problem is, spiritual stuff is not real. It doesn’t matter if your spiritual experiences are good or bad, if they’re side effects of drugs, they are experiences that happen only in your brain. How you interpret your drug-induced experiences is entirely subjective, as well as irrelevant. You should accept that regardless of whether or not you believe in “spiritual stuff”. I don’t, because there is no evidence for anything spiritual. But it doesn’t matter… You can’t take any such experiences seriously if you had them while you were high on meth.
(Actually I don’t believe that you can ever take “spiritual” experiences seriously. They are a result of your attributing a state of mind with spiritual significance. That state of mind is always a result of chemicals in the brain – serotonin and dopamine – which happen to be the same chemicals involved when using drugs. Spiritual experiences while high on narcotics, even ones like ayahuasca, are common. That doesn’t mean they have any spiritual significance, or that anything spiritual exists in reality.)
More importantly to realize is that experiences while high on meth are positive at the beginning. If they weren’t, nobody would continue using the drug. Your experiences may be more positive than negative for the first couple of years. There will be the occasional negative effect however, like being unable to wake up on time for work, and the consequences may not be too serious. So you learn to ignore those negative experiences.
But as time goes by, the negative experiences and consequences become more frequent, and more serious. But you adapt and learn to ignore those too. Eventually, one day you may realize that there are no more positive effects, and you don’t even remember when they stopped. But you still want to use. If you continue to use, that day will come.
Don’t take my word for it. Feel free to find out for yourself.